Canadian Politics Today

I am glad to hear you're ok.

It seems to me that facing the void... imminently... must clear our all of one's petty concerns and earthly pains.  I may have mentioned an uncle that seemed irredeemable that did the same thing as your mom. 

As a parent, I can say with perfect certainty that she loved you and held you at some point with the purest and least selfish love in her heart.  Whatever issues permeated her life and your relationship in the years that followed don't erase that, and I can only hope that she felt it again in the end.  At least, she did want to care from you as you say.

What I hope you get out of it is that even your poor broken mother saw what an incredible person you are and maybe saw wonder as to the positivity you bring into the world and felt proud.   

Now I'm upset, but since I don't "know" any of the people involved here I suppose it's just the eternal sadness+joy of our human condition.
  F*** parenthood and what it did to my previously cold heart....