Canadian Politics Today

I've been feeling very exhausted with Lindsey lately. I have had hardly any time to myself. She moved into a new apartment, so the last week of may was spent mostly helping her move out, and the first week of June has been spent helping her move in.  And she lived with me for several days until she got the keys to her new place.  And now that she is in and mostly unpacked she is planning more work for me.  We went shopping yesterday and she bought a ton of new light fixtures and fans and stuff and she needs me to install all of it.  And she needs more of my help hanging pictures and doing various repairs around the place.  And if we're not doing work on her new place, she's badgering me for sex and cuddles, or cooking for me, or taking me out for dinner. All of which is very nice but I just need space right now.

I love her but I just feel smothered right now.

And I can't help feeling a bit of jealousy. Basically her parents bought her the apartment. I'm not exactly sure of how this worked out on the legal/financial side, but basically that's the net result.  I've worked my ass off to get what I have, and she's just had it handed to her.  Must be nice to have rich parents. All I got from my parents is physical and emotional abuse.  My brain knows that this isn't Lindsey's fault, that what I'm feeling is just misdirected resentment of my own parents. But in spite of that, I'm still having a hard time with it.

Being back in the office has been a huge relief for me.  Being physically at work has been a relief from being constantly with Lindsey, but more than that, being among my coworkers again has been fulfilling. I feel like a part of my life has been given back to me. I didn't realize how much I missed the interaction.

 -k