We have calls with 3 of the folks online having kids yell, cry or play piano.
It's ok.
Kimmy, your gal is falling hard for you. You owe it to yourself and her to think about that and address it somehow. I just hear you saying you don't know, that other factors are taking away the urgency to decide etc. If you don't take a hold of this moment, it will pass and you will have to watch it fade back to the horizon.
Of course I am an irrational romantic, and I want you and L to have a romcom airport moment, followed by love everlasting.