Since she has no job to go to, Lindsey has been dog-walking and shopping for old-people she knows. She's reading everything she can about this and sending me articles and updates from the government websites and stuff like that. We spent the whole weekend together... it was very nice. We were driving out to do some hiking today, and she pulled over and started crying. She said "Have you been reading about what's happening in Italy?" and I nodded. "Things are going to get bad here in the next month. Not Italy bad, but bad. And if things get bad, I think we should get married because I don't ever want to be without you."
I got her calmed down and assured her that she wasn't ever going to be without me, and after a while she was feeling reassured enough to drive us to our destination and we went for a hike.
She laughed it off later-- "I'm so neurotic... 'AHHH! It's the end of the world! Let's get married!' I hope I didn't freak you out..." but it was kind of sobering. This was the first time she's ever used the M word in regard to us, and it's something I'd never really thought about. It's obviously something she has thought about. I don't think today counts as a proposal, but it made me realize that she's very invested in this. I have responsibilities to her... I guess I already did, but I didn't realize it to this degree.
She's very precious to me, but I never really considered the idea that I could be this important to her. I never considered that I could be this important to anybody, really. It feels strange.
-k
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