Very dry post for you. Maybe this is a reflection of your realization ? How do you feel about long-term relationships ? What's the longest you have been in/longest you can see yourself in ?
I'm Catholic so we mate for life.
I was with my previous sweetie for about 5 years. And the one before that for also about 5 years. And my special guy for also about 5 years. (my relationships seem to have a predictable expiry date. hmm.)
Sometimes when I'm with her, I feel like things are good and I'd be okay if they stay like this. Other times I find myself wondering if this is really what I want, or if I am "settling" or that sort of thing. And when I'm not with her I often find myself thinking about how much I miss Tanya or Karlene. And that leaves me wondering. Maybe I'm just going through the motions. Maybe my heart isn't really in this.
-k